You are an amazingly independent person.
Your relationship with God is unique as is every individuals. Seeking God and laying everything at His feet guides and leads all you do.
Awesome the things your kids do and have done.
Your ‘story’ has been written. In Isaiah 48:10 – “Behold, I have refined you, but not with silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction“. Our Almighty God has not dropped the pen that He is using to write yours and my story and so keep the faith and walk with The Holy Spirit for better understanding of your purpose.
GOOD success is in YOUR cards: Joshua 1:8; Proverbs 3:4.
You love it, let it speak to you daily: Psalm 23
I have watched you as my big Sister: So you will find favour and good success in the sight of God and man” (Proverbs 3:1-4; also see 1 Kings 2:3). Seeing that the Bible speaks of ‘success’ as a reward, I think it’s safe to say that there is nothing wrong with a desire to be successful. In fact, we are not wrong to say that God wants us to be successful.