My heart is heavy! To look back so much threatens to come up! BUT, I DIED!
In essence there is NO ‘past,’ a blank slate it is!
The Word that I indepthly study everyday! Says EXACTLY that! https://www.pulse.ng/communities/religion/what-to-read-8-bible-verses-on-letting-go-of-the-past/nwjqrt6
I am daily attempting to do that, live for today – reason?
I have let go. Property, everything is gone; I by the grace of God have let go. I have sat down and thought about everything. I am NOT supposed to be here (alive). I have reviewed my history! Head trauma, physical trauma, mental trauma, closed head injury! Nat, I am NOT supposed to be here. In essence, ALL glory to God!!!
Years ago, I had the ‘dream’, in essence it was last night! I remember seeing the kids and asking that I wake up to ensure I could find out why the tears.
Natalie, I do NOT wish to dwell in or on the past!
I NEED to move forward AND forward EVER, backward NEVER!
I have been spending time in prayer! Please pray for and with me!