Don’t waste your time trying to figure everything out. “Making the very most of your time [here on Earth, recognizing and taking advantage of each opportunity and using it with wisdom and diligence], because the days are [filled with] evil.” Ephesians 5:16.
There are some things you’re not supposed to understand right now. https://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Not-Understanding-God~s-Things
We cannot see God’s plan.
We cannot fathom how God does things.
We think natural; God exists and inhabits and Created The supernatural.
If you’re always trying to figure it out, it’s going to frustrate you. Instead of using that energy trying to understand what’s happening, use it to thank God that He is Working on your behalf.
Exist in Thanksgiving to God, continually thank Him for everything, Amen.
That God is fighting your battles, give ALL glory to God.
Thank God for making crooked places straight, thank Him that you are surrounded by His favor.